Motherhood is one of those really weird life circumstances when it’s the hardest time of your life and the best time of your life. I’m not sure anyone could have explained this to me beforehand, and I’m certainly not complaining, but it’s one of those amazingly odd things you just have to experience for yourself.
I don’t want to miss a single smile, coo, or “crow” (as my grandmother refers to it), yet some days I’m so tired I have to remind myself to talk to him when he’s awake and alert.
I love to watch him enjoy a meal, crossing his little feet and kneading his tiny hands in complete satisfaction and delight. Then my stomach growls its protest reminding me that I’ve skipped a few meals playing with him, bathing him, or whatever else he needs.
I’m getting to see the world with fresh, new-to-the-earth eyes, yet my to-do list sometimes yells so loudly over those moments, I can’t even enjoy the simple things that bring him pleasure.
Motherhood is both beautiful and awful all at the same time, yet as I stumble through it, I pray that I learn something, find joy in each moment, and soak in his sweetness for all it’s worth.
You are so right. I go back and forth on my feelings all the time. One moment I can be so angry about something they did and want to scream, and then later at night I am laying in bed almost crying at how sweet and precious there are. I have never been so moody in my life! Haha! It is something you can never explain to someone who hasn’t experienced it before.
Even if someone had told me, I don’t you can understand until you’ve gone thru it too.
Love this! Thanks for sharing.
I couldn’t agree more with the above “conversations” but your final sentence said it all. Soak in his sweetness for all it’s worth. Every moment redeemed!
A perfect way to describe motherhood – beautiful and awful. It’s not something you know until you are a mother. Just remember that this is a season of life. When he is a little older, things will change and you’ll be able to take some breaks while he plays by himself on the floor or takes a nap. It will be a new season. Brad and I used to tag-team with our son. He had colic and sometimes it was so difficult. When I couldn’t take anymore, Brad would take over and visa versa. But you get beyond the awful moments – realize it is temporary and look forward to the beautiful! Enjoy the beautiful!
Thanks, Terry! A quick smile from him always quickly erases the awful parts.
Beautiful, Allison. Balancing your needs and Finn’s likely has a learning curve. You’ll figure it out.
Thanks for the encouragement as always, Ellen.
Allison,
He is so handsome! I love the pics. Enjoy every moment, for even in the midst of the awful, God brings so much good. (And one day, you’ll look back and either laugh at or teach from those moments.)
Thanks, Alycia! During the rough times I just remind myself it will fly by.