I guess you can’t really miss something while you’re going through it. I think you have to come out on the other side first to really appreciate what a particular situation brings to your life.

I’m not gonna lie, this parenting/up all night/not having a clue what to do/feeding constantly/barely eating thing is not easy. We’ve had some issues breastfeeding, but after a meeting with a lactation consultant, where we discovered we were doing everything “right” and I’m still having pain issues, I’ve decided to power through until he’s bigger (and I’m tougher I guess). We have supplemented with formula since I was injured so badly for  little while and wasn’t pumping enough, but I’m hoping we can return to exclusive breastfeeding soon. Not that there’s anything wrong with using formula, but if I can nurse for free (and it’s way more convenient for us than formula), then why not?

Nursing every 2 hours gives you plenty of time to think, that’s for sure. I mean what else are you going to do? I’ve stared at him so long now, I could probably tell you how many individual strands of hair are on his head. Despite the pain, lack of sleep, and other various obstacles that come along with motherhood, I know that one day I’ll miss all this…

The uninterrupted time with just me and him.

His warm little cheek against my skin.

His sock-covered hand resting on my chest.

The whole wide world in the crook of my arm.